A Lil’ City Rude

So having  to down size I don’t have keep everything where I live but also have a storage garage for seasonal items, keepsakes, and other various things.  One beautifully chilly lightly snowy evening my teenager and I were unloading a few of these boxes and some groceries at our place there were enough boxes and it was cold enough that it made the long flight up to our loft seem even longer.  But we were laughing and having a good time with it anyway.  Main street was basically deserted but from behind me and across the street I heard a man’s voice “do you need any help”.  I felt my body spontaneously stiffen as I ever so slightly turned my head that direction and said “No thank-you we have it”, and turned away.  Realizing in that instant that I was sure to have not had a small town pleasant smile on my face I swallowed hard.  “Really it would be no problem at all” I heard calling back at me.  I fully turned to face him this time completely armed with my smile and said I am sure in a much softer tone “No need really, we are just about done, but thanks so much for the offer!”.  I was met with kind eyes and a gentle smile a connection I should expect where we live now but not one that I am use too.  The fact was we would have loved to have had some help but trust isn’t something that comes to me easy.  Where we had moved from if someone had asked you to help unload your automobile chances are they were more likely loading it into their own and not helping you at all.

On a side note I would also have to say he was also attractive and maybe this is another reason I am not dating.  Obviously a topic worth exploring in my other blog section 😉